I was angry. I was hurt and I was tired.
I turned to Scripture and demanded answers from God. What I got back wasn’t what I expected. It wasn’t,
And we know that for those who love God all things work together for good, for those who are called according to his purpose. (Romans 8:28)
and it wasn’t,
For our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all. (2 Corinthians 4:17)
These verses, and promises like them were helpful, but when someone shared them, I wanted to physically harm them. I didn’t struggle with why, I struggled with “What do you want from me, Lord?”
What brought me comfort was wisdom from a King, who was also struggling, who wanted answers to unanswerable questions, and found peace in laying it before God and honestly admitting,
“I am small. You are big. The answers aren’t mine. They’re Yours.”
I found hope in these three words…
A time to…
Ecclesiastes 3 introduces this idea –
God in His infinence gives meaning and purpose to every single month, day, hour, and year. I see good days and bad days. God see days that matter. I see storms and I see sunshine. I rue the storms and want to linger in the sunshine. What if God values both?
What if God sees difficult and declares it beautiful?
What if God loves me just as much when I’m shaking my fist, as He does when I’m lavishing Him with praise?
I wanted to know that this season wouldn’t be forever. That bottom of the pit wasn’t every darn day and that held was a real and true promise, not a made up radio song.
I found truth. I found the Savior’s affection. I found my joy again.
For one of the first times in my life I wanted to know who God really was, what He really valued and not the second-hand version I had settled for.
Then, I realized that my trial was a drop in an ocean of earthly trials. We all have them. We all have tears. We all have heartbreak. We all have triumph. We all have uncertainty. We all have times of wrestling. We all have times to build and times to break down. We all have times to gather together, and times to cast away.
Casting Stones is my invitation to wrestle alongside, to open the Word and find truth in the trial and the triumph, as well as the ordinary day.
It has devotions for five days of study a week, questions for individual growth and discovery, or to discuss as a group, because community around the Word makes every day brighter and less daunting. Let’s cast together, let’s build up together, let’s wrestle together, let’s plant together.
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Casting Stones… we’re in this life together. Every triumph and joy, every affliction and sorrow, He is right there with us.